“don’t fall in love with a writer “, they said
because you can see yourself in her words
how she describes you
and takes you back to the past
in her words, you are reminded of the first day you met her
the moment you walked towards her and
you just couldn’t keep your eyes off of her
how you held her hand for the first time
how the warmth of her embrace made you feel home
how her presence is like a safe haven to you
her words began dancing in your mind as you remember
when you and she danced the night away in the rain
when all you did was laughing on the stupid joke she cracked
yes, she still remembers every detail like the back of her hands
that’s why she writes it all
she wants you to remember it as well
but it was also her words that remind you
of the morning
you lost her
Dear my friend January,
You know deep down he is not going to stay, but you keep listening to what your heart says. You still hold on to any possibility that might happen. You are just overwhelmed by the amount of attention he gave to you–something you have been craving for. You love the experience, not the person. You barely even know him. Do you even know little things about him? Has he ever opened up to you? I know you like the back of my hands. I know you value connection the most, so why are you acting like this when you know the truth. He is just like the wave in the ocean. As much as you love the waves when it gracefully hits the shores, but it was never yours to keep.
Save yourself from the heartbreak, do not waste your time crying over someone who has been leaving a trail of broken hearts everywhere he goes. Believe me, you do not want to lose yourself in the way of loving someone. If it’s meant to be, you will come across him one day, and this time, I believe, is not by chance but by fate. In the meantime, enjoy the moment while it lasts. Carpe diem
You are the one I wanted most to stay
but just like a bird
You aren’t meant to stay in one place only
You aren’t meant to be caged
you are meant to be free in search for home
Home where you feel safer
than anywhere in this world
so fly on…
I set you free
Here are the things I want for you –
I want you to be happy. I want someone else to know the warmth of your smile, to feel the way I did when I was in your presence.
I want you to know how happy you once made me and though you really did hurt me, in the end, I was better for it. I don’t know if what we had was love, but if it wasn’t, I hope to never fall in love. Because of you, I know I am too fragile to bear it.
I want you to remember my lips beneath your fingers and how you told me things you never told another soul. I want you to know that I have kept sacred, everything you had entrusted in me and I always will.
Finally, I want you to know how sorry I am for pushing you away when I had only meant to bring you closer. And if I ever felt like home to you, it was because you were safe with me. – I want you to know that most of all.
We didn't get tonight, We don't have tomorrow
So don't ruin now
It’s already 21st October 2015 which means it’s my 20th birthday today! 20 years of (non) existence. I’m having an existential crisis right now hahah x